why should i feel this way when everything is going to end soon?
I am not going to care anymore...
people that are su rrounding me isn'nt the people...
they are just trees to me..
people around are under a big sun...
but how is it possible for me to be under hell?
I wasn't suppose to be here in the first place , i could have stayed where i was, but they just had too.. I hate everything,and i hate everybody...
i dont take there words seriously, what they say are just bullshit, and nothing but jokes.
I know that they dont care, i want them to stop messing around with me..
don't try to blame stuff to be excused ...dont change the subject whenever you try to go into a big detail when i get curious..
Do they think of me as just a doll, just floating around in spacing and throwing me to places where i dont even belong??
what have i got to do with other people??
THats just how life is, thats how people kill themselves..
Friends cry, when their friends die, because of not understanding..
Understanding means alot to people, not that their in a big square, or a box.
but Understanding...People would say they understand, but they just dont, becuase, people don't know other emotions, and everybody feels the different way. its called personality..personality just changes everything.
Don't try so hard to understand, because you can't..
I kno they want to help but, nothing changes,,...
You have to let them think, and think, until they get the answer..
If they want to die, then, they chose to die, because their question might have been answered. People that die, doesnt have reasons. When they get to suicide, they know what their doing.. because they think before they act..if they think their life isnt worth because of some what reason, then ok. Right now, I'm asking my self a question, and im trying to answer it..
i want to know, why people has those looks,their emotions,their act of rudeness and cruelty. what makes them do those. Cant they notice it? Do they know how it feels? People dont understand from right and wrong..
how long will this last?? I wish i just had someone that would understand my deep deep emotions.... I want someone that can understand my feelings...
Beginning of school year, I just only thought o nothing but to be happy...
never felt pain or suffering. I never got to think about how i really felt inside... but somthing struck me,... and thats how i was able to meet my deep emotions and myself... I've been stuck inside a fake rainbow...An island where their are no worries... but i got onto a boat, that shows me everything and how the world is made up of people that just don't function right. How their words are nothing but lies. People are not meant to be inside a box, full of fake rainbows and butterflies. Everything in this world is just made out of nothing but lies that has been prisoning the people that doesnt know their real feelings. People around me wants me to go back inside the box.How will you understand how you really feel if your just inside a box with feelings that isnt even yours? Don't let people fool you, friends might fool you , and you can be back inside the fake box.. I'd rather die, than be inside a box where i dont even know how i really am.
You cant' think how you feel if your in the fake box, because thats not how peoples feeling goes. All they can think about is happiness. Its like when you say your going to do your hwk, but then you dont, or if you say that your going to take out the trash but then you dont. Happiness is just bull shit to me. its a fake world. a world of nothing, where you dont explore and see the real people surrounding you...
I already see the people, I already know the people,
now that they know.. the task would be harder to understand..
life is a game, full of fools and criminals.. I dont want anyone to understand, becuz if they say that they do, just a lie to me, If they say they agree, then forget. their goes another clue.
happiness... means nothing to me..
Stating a new life..
